I find that I am looking for something but I still have not figured out what I am looking for.  I thought that when I lost my job that this was it baby, turn around and finally get my writing off the ground.  You would think it was simple, start out like your working, get up, have breakfast and go to work just with out the driving part.  Simple right?  No!  First of all, writing is work.  Oh I can come with a dozen different story ideas but now the problem is getting the whole story down.  This involves work, sure you can put the butler in the library with the candlestick but what reason does he have for knocking over Colonel Mustard and giving him a terrible headache in the process?  Not simple but then I am determined to follow through because it is never a good thing to drop a dream to fast.

Now I have also found a new direction in art and I like that one also, video making.  I have always done little things for the church but usually using power point.  Simple, direct, fancy photo slide shows, nothing really special.  Even added music to it to allow people to fall asleep easier.  Then I started getting into making videos.  First I started small by making an one hour documentary on the churches history as we just celebrated our 100th year of providing service.  Man did I say simple, almost gave up a dozen different times not to mention the frigging bloody hassle with formatting issues.  No one likes to make their products compatible with other programs.  I spent half of the time just trying to find software that would convert files from one format to another.  Funny how I can look and back and still cringe in horror.  (my loving wife suggested the other day to re-do the whole thing now that I am better at editing and visualizing issues.  Yooks!)

So here is the issue, what do I do?  How should I proceed?  Don’t even get me started on the comic strip thingy, I’m working on it.

I find I am at a juxtaposition and no idea which way to proceed.